You, you and me

   huuh, entah lah, tak tau lah, pelik lah, kenapa lah, macam mana lah, ape ape je lah!




   I thought im over you, after years i'd been trying to forget you. by the way you treat me, gosh I cant hardly hate you. You were my wingman, my superhero who were there for me every second every minute. I was hoping to be the special one for you but you were obviously not. Trying to figure out whats whys and hows. And finally caught that you cant afford to lose me. Trying really hard to understand those words. And you give back my heart in a million pieces with your another hand holding others heart. I took my heart, bandaging, curing. You broke my heart, oh yes you do. Millions of times, took and throw just like that. But shit, you knew my weakness. You took me back after you crashed others. What kind of human are you ? You gave me hopes, you gave me love, you gave me soul. You make me live with a beautiful scentic heart again. And obviously, I am stupid for keeping faith in you again. And now, it's the time to wait for him to throw my million pieces of heart again. Tasha, you wont understand. I wont understand. I would'nt even care if he broke my heart again cause that'll reminds me of him ♥ the one I love, my first love. My knight and shining amour. Im sure, I can cure my heart bit by bit.




   You, the one who makes me forgot who he are. The one who build my heart, bandage my cuts. You never knew about him. But you always give me stupid spirits. The facts you mention, is never true. The expectation you stated, is never true. But your heart is always right. You love me for who I am. But I was not. Im sorry, I shouldnt let you go at the first place. I know you were about to let me enjoy living, feel your love, feel your sincerity. Im sorry, I really do. Oh if you knew how much I miss your hug, how much I miss your kisses. Those things that I never appreciate when we were together. The one that I always think about when Im with you is him. Now I regret it. I regret it with all of my soul. I want you back, baby oh yes i do. But no, you can't accept me anymore. Oh, it hurts. It hurt so much. And now, you're damn kind. You're new. You're someone else but you never give up on me. I love you now. Oh yes i do. Tasha, dont make anymore mistakes. I will make mistakes, for that mistakes build me to be a better girl ♥ I will love you whole-heartedly. Trust me, Im trying.


ps : haishooo, im so in love with two guys right now -.-


lots of love, 
TASHA