A lot of things is in my mind.

Confuse and guilt.


That's the two words that had been wondering in my mind for this whole two weeks. Who's heart am I gonna break first ? Who's hope am I gonna crash next ? I'm just not that strong ! This drama thing is freakin' me out! I don't know what to do. There's no one who I can ask for help or opinion. I can't ask from my actors themself, they'll surely said things that can make me feel better, but obviously I'm not! I just don't know what to do. Don't know what to decide. If i conclude, people will condemn. And there it goes, I'm gonna lose my guts again. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO! Oh god, please help me. I'm clueless. I'm too weak to be in this type of situation. And this is obviously what happens when I'm too close to people. 


ps : To those that only knows of only how to condemn, oh please. you can shut the fuck up cause I don't need those. And yeah, to someone. I don't actually need your comments about my characters, story or my actor and actress and the way of me giving characters to them. You can just shut up and help me if you wanted to. You're time to shine is over and now it's my turn so back off!


lots of love, 
TASHA