Felt Like Shit

I don't know why. I don't know when and I don't know how.


But I really am not in the mood right now. DON'T EVEN FUCKING KNOW WHY. I kept thinking that my life is getting more and more less interesting. I felt like there's no any reasons for me to go to school anymore. There's no any reasons for me to go shop things and look good anymore. There's no reason for me to take care of my balance diet anymore so I just eat and eat. There's no reason for me to even study anymore. I hate this feeling. I don't want to. Don't want to! But it keeps coming to me like always. *groans* I don't even know how to keep the feelings away from me. I kept securing my feelings let me beats the pain myself inside never letting it coming out and confess it to others.I hate me for being like that. I hate for not knowing what to do and how did it happened. Why? That's the Q that had been wandering inside my mind almost everyday. I just can't stand it. Even a small tiny incident would make me feel so bad. I just can't imagine how will I be if there's something big is going to happen to me. I can't even think of it. I'm scared, that's the word. Scared. 


ps: Sorry, sebab update masa ada probs je. A busy girl, I am.


lots of love, Tasha ♥

What's wrong?

Hey


What's wrong ? What's wrong with me ?


Why can't I see my own bestfriend happy with her new bff? Why can't you move on tasha? It's all your fault before. You're the one who left her before. Why must you be all sad and sorrow when you see her smiling and laughing and having a great life? Why tasha why? Yeah, it's because she can live without me. Now I know how she felt when she sees me laughing and having fun with my other friends. So I have to be happy for her. Cause she's now smiling. She's happy. I should be happy for her as well. Yeah, I should. You should tasha, you should.


wiping tears, Tasha

This is life

Heeyhoo people 


I just knew that I had a very nuisance disease called 'Migrane'. Yeah congrats Tasha Hasnan. *sigh*. But I am strong. Obviously :p Okay actually, I wanted to write something today. That I just realise that I am freakin' sick of relationships. On the other hand, I'm freakin' sick of school. I don't want to be in school. I can't wait to end my school-life and get busy with my future ahead. I don't want to get stuck here and follows all the damn crappy rules and listen to  orders like we don't have our own opinion. HATE IT! I'm a grown up. Now, they need to listen to me. And relationship is like a rope for me. A rope that spends a lot to tighten it. Do you get the idea? Yeah, obviously it's a rope that tight us and limits our freedom and we spent money just to make sure that the rope is still hanging, tighting us up. Don't you think so? And I don't know why. Relationships is something wrong for me. I rather spent my days with friends, family and some adolesence stuff then wasting my time texting, missing and dating who we can only meet one guy the whole period -.- Lameeeee, it's your opinion but this one is just me :) Tasha Hasnan. Well, that's all. Todaloo :D


lots of love, Tasha