Felt Like Shit

I don't know why. I don't know when and I don't know how.


But I really am not in the mood right now. DON'T EVEN FUCKING KNOW WHY. I kept thinking that my life is getting more and more less interesting. I felt like there's no any reasons for me to go to school anymore. There's no any reasons for me to go shop things and look good anymore. There's no reason for me to take care of my balance diet anymore so I just eat and eat. There's no reason for me to even study anymore. I hate this feeling. I don't want to. Don't want to! But it keeps coming to me like always. *groans* I don't even know how to keep the feelings away from me. I kept securing my feelings let me beats the pain myself inside never letting it coming out and confess it to others.I hate me for being like that. I hate for not knowing what to do and how did it happened. Why? That's the Q that had been wandering inside my mind almost everyday. I just can't stand it. Even a small tiny incident would make me feel so bad. I just can't imagine how will I be if there's something big is going to happen to me. I can't even think of it. I'm scared, that's the word. Scared. 


ps: Sorry, sebab update masa ada probs je. A busy girl, I am.


lots of love, Tasha ♥