Im sorry mama.

heyy ,

   GOSG! Im just confuse. Ma, are you letting me go or not ? Im sorry I didnt keep our promise. I know my results are fucking bad but I'd been staying home for 2 weeks! I do what you asked me to do. I obeyed all of your instructions.. I'd been a very good daughter all this while. I kept all of our other promise. Why? Why must you get angry everytime I needed to go out and have fun with my friends? Why ma, why? I respect you more than I respect my teachers ma, believe me. Why do you keep saying those words about not respecting you? Im trying to be the best for you. Why must you get angry when you knew that "she's" not going? Is it because she's clever? Or is it because she's the daughter of your bestfriend? WHY MA ? WHY MA! I never asked for your money to go there like what other kids do. Cause for me, your blessing just to let me go there is more important than anything! I love you ma, I always try to be that girl you want me to be. I always let go of my dreams for you. And I never tell you that, cause I don't want you to get hurt. I know, you always think of my future, of my safety but ma, im 16. I know how to take care of myself. I got my friends to back me up. I got friends ma, remember that. Why must you always scold me everytime I wanted to go out with my friends? Why ma why? I know how to take care of myself. I love you ma, I do. Im sorry, for being too stubborn. But I need to do this, so you could have at least some faith in me. I really hope, you do. 

ps: there's just one thing, im begging you. You're blessing.

lots of love, 

TASHA