I need some strength

too weak to express things. too sad to hoping there's always someone who always care for me. too frustrated when there's no one who understand. too hard to laugh when there's full of tears. weak cold tears. oh god.

bitchy day

heyy,

eghh I just hate today and i dont know why. Why tasha why ? Kay kau menyampah dengan someone but you fuckin' can't be tasha, she's your friend ! Kaaaaayyyy fineeeee tak nak menyampah. and there it goes, the first suffocating feeling that i have to control. and second, im hungry! like fuckin' hungry !! and yeah when i ate, i suffocate more cause it will remind me of my fuckin' huge stomach !! THE HELL! yeaaaah i'm all stress out ! there goes the third and next, fourth LIKE FUCKIN' YEAH IM JEALOUS!!!! yessss, I AM JEALOUS! what the hell is wrong of being jealous ? Yupp, my bestfriend baru clash for ONLY TWO FUCKING DAYS and yeah today SHE HAD A FUCKING BOYFRIEND! while i am still single -.- the hell right ? yeah i know, i was just expressing myself. Yeah im too stress out. I think a lot, tasha stop it. you shouldnt do this post, you're a girl. Girl shouldnt said those stuff, BUT WHAT I CAN DO?!! NO ONE'S HERE FOR ME !!! EVERYONE IS GETTING AWAY FROM ME !! EVERYONE LEFT ME ! thank you very much.

lots of fuckin love, 

TASHA

Missing you both :'|

Heyy 

   Sometimes friends do make me feel comfortable and happy. Friends are always here beside me whenever I needed them. But not all of my friends are being kind to me. Whatever it is, I miss having fun with my dearest bestfriend, aisya zubir. Aisya, sorry :( Kita tau, I shouldnt do this to you. I should be beside you and laugh together like we used to be. But I am weak. Too weak to lose both of you. You and yaya. Im sorry, but you are still my bestfriend eventhough there's maybe one day you'll forget me and won't make me your bestfriend anymore but you still are for me :'(


   and M, i miss you. I miss your sarcasm. I miss your problems, i miss your brotherly attitude. I know, you must have forget all about me. I miss you, i really want to talk to you. A LOT! I wanna tell you about my problems, my subjects, about how tense I am facing my senior year. But you're not here for me. And what hurt me the most, is you didnt fight for saving our relationship. You're the one who left me, your bratty little pet-sister. You're the one who finished our memories. You're the one who ended this all up. You didnt fight for it. I suck of not having you around. Before this. Everytime, I'm facing any problems there's always you, right behind me. But now, you're gone. Leaving me, with your new world. Never even looked back. That day, when I saw you, I really hope you approaches me, exhange news but no. You just walk straight ahead. Never even glance at me. I dont even know what feeling I felt when you walk away. Angry ? Sad ? Dissapoinment ? Miss ? Miss ? Yeah, i miss you. So much, and i know you're not. But i am missing you :'( you're my solution of every problem. You're my present of every happiness. You're my tissue of every sadness. Haha funny, cause im not for you. There's only one thing i can do for you by far, praying for you. I miss you.

lots of love, 

TASHA