Nak kahwin umur 30. Itu aku pasti.

Assalamualaikum

    Dada luas, tangan depa. Normal. Dapat bernafas dengan bebas. Aku bebas begini. Aku selesa begini. Aku gembira begini. Aku lebih tenteram begini. Bukannya aku benci, bukannya aku tidak menyenangi. Tapi aku takut. Takut pada komitmen. Takut pada risiko. Takut pada penolakan berkat dari Yang Maha Esa. So lebih baik aku berjaga jaga. Mengambil langkah mudah. Menolak semua potensi buruk. Consequences that may lead to major regrets!

   Bukan aku tak sudi, bukan niat untuk mempermainkan. Tapi niat di hati ingin mencuba. Ingin memberi peluang, ingin menerima. Namun dah tersurat. Oleh yang Maha Besar. Hati ini masih tidak bersedia. Masih tertutup, masih takut, masih berdarah. Mungkin akan terbuka satu hari nanti, tapi aku sendiri tidak mahu membukakannya secepat ini.

   Bukan tidak ingin mencuba lagi, tapi hati jadi tak tenteram. Seperti dosa menyelubungi diri. Seperti setiap pahala terpantul keluar, tidak sempat meresap ke dalam diri, tak dapat membantu menjadi hamba yang patuh. Sudah dijelaskan perkara ini haram. Haram dulu haram sekarang, selamanya haram. Maka tidak senanglah hati.

   Jika betul sayang, jika betul cinta. Jadikan Allah di tengah. Cerita pada Dia, kasih pada Dia, maka aku akan terasa jika kasihmu ikhlas. Aku tunggu pada yang Halal. Aku tunggu pada yang gigih. Usah paksa, usah nangis. Jika sudah tersurat maka itulah. Berikan aku ruang untuk bernafas, untuk meluaskan dada, untuk mendepakan tangan. Lillahi taa'la.

Don't laugh, this is serious shit.

   I have the most terrifying experience yesterday. And it still freaks me out, even today!

It was lunch, and mama masak macam biasa. Aku baru lepas mandi, so aku turun bawah ajak nenek makan sekali. So there was me, my little sister who I called baby, and nenek. Aku senduk nasi and baby buka tudung saji. And we saw "ayam goreng" but it was all bones and small. I thought that's a new way for mama to cut the ayam, maybe to just cook the bones, and the meat is for other dishes that she might cook for other meals. 

   So we ate. I have a strange feelings the moment the "ayam" gotten into my oesophagus. I notices it but I was too hungry to even care. But everything was all messed up. After I ate those "ayam" I lost my apetite. I put on too much ketchup on my rice, I shaked the table too much. I was handing my grandma her glass of water, but it slipped from my fingers. Pecah lah gelas tu apa lagi. It was strange. But I'd go through those situations anyway.

   Dah siap siap kemas meja, my father came down. And he said "Boleh ke nenek makan "burung" tu?" and it startled me....... burung.... BURUNG.....BURUNG...BURUNG?!!!!

   WHAT THE HELL DID I JUST ATE?!! IT'S A FREAKING BIRDDD!!! how can I ate a freaking bird?! And how didn't I notice the small figure and the less meat with more bones!!! AAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!! I went straight upstairs and brushed my teeth, and I hurt myself when my gum started bleeding. Oh god, I cried.... Due to severe displeasing taste, and I'm totally disgusted, and I just can't stop imagining in my mind of a bleeding headless little bird on a pan..........

   I sat in my room, crying like a baby, and I swore that I will never ate anything in my entire life! And my mom came, laughing... Dia cakap, dia pun geli nak basuh burung tu. And I cried even more, cause she didn't told me... And she sat beside me, rubbing my throats. "alah.. adik bukan makan benda haram pun. dah dah jangan ingat, jom makan ice cream?" 

   At the moment, the sound of vanila choc ice cream doesnt excite me too much, until i finished my crying, yep i went downstairs. BUT I DIDNT WENT INTO THE KITCHEN. Cause I swear the bleeding headless bird is still on my mind. So I went to the fridge and took the ice cream. 

p/s: I did try sucking out my throat, but it ended up bad.......
p/s/p/s: don't even try it....... -.-

Kepastian

Nak sangat tahu.

Assalamualaikum :)

   Tulis ni pun bukannya sebab apa, cuma ingin meluahkan. Ye lah, alang alang dah ada blog, memang akan ku curahkan segala rasa hati lah kan? Kih3. Hmmm.. 

   Aku punya crush, yep insan lemah dan hina seperti aku pun punya rasa ingin dicintai. Wah ayat kih3. Aku punya crush yang aku rasa dia sendiri mengetahui betapa aku sayangkan dia. Tapi.. aku musykil. Benarkah? Samakah? Perasaan dia terhadap aku?

   Kita sentiasa berkongsi cerita, tiap hari, tiap jam. Saling menjaga satu sama lain. Namun, dia jauh. Jauh dari di mana aku berada sekarang. Satu satunya perkara yang menghubungkan kami, adalah teknologi. Dan itu menimbulkan tanda tanya bagi aku, sampai bila? Sampai bila kami akan berhubung seperti itu? Sampai bila kami akan berkongsi cerita? Sampai bila?

   Hari aku, terasa kosong, mungkin juga kurang jika tidak bertegur dengan dia. Jika di dalam satu hari itu, aku tidak sekurang-kurangnya wish goodnight pada dia, hati aku tidak tenteram. Risau, gelisah. Sihat kah dia? Apakah cerita dia hari ini? 

   Cinta. Ya mungkin aku cinta, tapi adakah itu cinta jika aku sendiri merasakan yang aku tidak layak untuk berdamping dengan dia? Adakah itu cinta sekiranya, aku dapat rasakan yang dia tidak pernah secocok dengan aku? sekiranya, aku merasakan yang aku hanyalah, teman ketika bosan? 

   Aku cuma inginkan kepastian. Jika benar dia mempunyai perasaan yang sama, Tuhan tunjukkanlah. Namun jika tidak, aku juga tidak ingin berpisah dengan dia. Biarlah aku menjadi, teman tika bosan. buat selama lamanya :')

p/s: sila muntah sekarang~

Malang Tidak Berbau.

Weh haha laka laka je.

Assalamualaikum.

      Pe habaq semua? Kih3. Berabad tak hupdate blog ni. Geli geli je boleh pulak nak update malam ni haha. Tak ada lah, sebenarnya kebosanan ni. Dok statik atas katil tak boleh buat apa apa. Haaa nak tau mengapa? kih3, kelakar tau ceritanya.

       Actually, pagi tadi nak hantar kakak kat station bus, harini dia nak balik unimap, perlis. Aku jalan sebelah mama, siap pegang tangan lagi kot. Pastu entah macam mana, haha muncul pulak lubang depan aku. Entah macam mana tau? Kih3. Aku pun terjatuh dengan gayanya dan terseliuh lah kaki aku yang berbulu ni tihihi.

     Mak kau, sakit dia, takyah cakap ah. Peghh, meleleh air mata hidung liur sume! Menangis air mata maria aku kat lubang tu, Hahahaha. macik macik abe abe kat bus station tu pun dah menumpukan perhatian ke atas aku. al-maklumlah, dok menangis teresak esak sampai terduduk kan? mesti diorang fikir camni "Ish, sedih betul dia nak hantar kakak dia pergi, mesti dah lama terpisah, ish ish ish" eceh haha.

    Setelah bus kakak aku pun sampai, dan kakak sudah dibawa pergi, aku pun dipapah masuk ke dalam kereta. Ya Allah, masa tu sumpah! sakit dia, yang teramat sangat! Aku hanya mampu mengalirkan air mata untuk menahannnnn. Eceh haha. Pastu abah bawak pergi klinik. Turun kereta memang tak boleh jalan langsung, jadinya wilca lah menjadi peneman. kih3. doktor kat klinik tu cakap, kena x-ray, risau ada fracture lah apa hentah dia berwirid dengan mama, aku diamkan aje. 

     pastu ada benda kelakar tau jadi, kih3. masa aku tengah dok dengar mama mintak cuti seminggu tu tenenene, haha boleh pulak ada ulat bulu atas seluar aku. PEGH aku apo laie! menjerit lahhh! AAAHHHHHHH, aku jerit! pastu doktor suspect kaki aku sakit, terus dia tanya "mana sakit mana sakit?" hahahahaha aku pulak dok pejam mata je kih3 mengong. Pastu mak aku dok risau dah, dah bangun dari kusi, aku pun baru sedar yang diorang dah lebih2 risaunya, baru lah aku tunjuk ulat bulu atas peha aku tu kah3!! kelakar wehh, lepas nurse lelaki tolong amekkan dari peha aku, aku gelak sampai keluar air mata kah3. hadui, boleh pulak ulat bulu ni inter-frame. Aku rasa dia dah ada kat situ sejak aku jatuh kat lubangg tu lah rasanya, eee scary!

     pastu, doktor klinik tak dapat buat apa2, aku pun dihantar ke hospital tengku ampuan rahimah, klang. kat situ, mak aih, nurse yang tolak wilca aku tu, boleh pulak sendawa beberapa kali depan aku, pegh bau sambal! mesti baru lepas makan nasi lemak cissssss. dah sampai satu bilik kecemasan tu, aku kena tunggu buat beberapa minit utk dapat layanan doktor. hehehe bila doktor dah check sikit2, aku pg xray. dapat keputusan, doktor cakap takde pape, terseliuh biasa. cuma bengkaknya agak besar jadi susah untuk pesakit berjalannn jeng3. 

    dah dapat MC, aku pun ajak mak aku balik. haha mama marah, dia cakap. UBAT TU AMBIK DULU! adui, aku dari kecik memang allergic lah dengan ubat ubat ni. lebih2 lagi jenis kapsul tu. mak aih, nak telan tu peghhhh, mengalir air hidung ni. aku tak reti lah nak makan, pelik. hehehe. dah sampai rumah, aku pun dikendong oleh apakku ke kamar kah3. dan disinilah aku bertapa, tak gerak2. aduiyaiii, bosan weh bosan! 

moral of the story: lain kali, nampak ulat bulu jerit "ulat bulu!" bukannya tutup mata. Kthanksbai :p

Eeeee

Assalamualaikum.

        Entah kenapa. Harini banyak sangat benda tak kena. Starting from a very heart-breaking text message from a certain someone whom I thought she was going to be a good friend of mine. But I guessed wrong. Hahhhh. Lepastu gaduh dengan kakak lagi. Kenapa lah mulut aku lancang sangat? Cakap lepas jee, tak pernah nak fikir dulu. And TASHA HASNAN! Kenapa tak respect kakak? Kenapa lawan balik apa dia cakap? Tapi aku tension sangat. Sangat sangat sangat. Aku sepatutnya balik poly esok! And aku dah boleh start study esok, tapi semua plan tak menjadi. Zana pergi beli ticket hari jumaat. Apanya! Bila aku nak study macamtu? Bus petang pulak tu, confirm sampai malam. Sabtu orang dah ramai kat kamsis, serious tak boleh study riuh rendah nanti. And Ahad? WHAT?! the next day dah exam, you gotta be kidding me. Hahhh kenapalah macam ni jadinya, I thought everything will turn out just fine.. Tapi aku tak boleh salahkan zana, dah hari jumaat je tiket yang ada lagi. Sepatutnya aku dah suruh dia beli awal awal hmm. 

        Hahhh dugaan! Kakak, maafkan adik. Zana, jumpa jumaat ni. Tasha, tabahkan hati.

mmm bai.

Girls, please.

Hi.

I wonder. I wonder why, girls nowadays are so easy to get. In other simple to be understand word, perasan. I mean come on girls, lelaki senyum it doesnt mean that he likes you or he wants to know you or even you're pretty. Jangan cepat perasan. There's hundreds of negative reasons why guys smile at you.

Well, for example. Maybe, they are laughing at you. Maybe korang pakai tudung terbalik? And you thought, that today, you looked extra extra pretty, sebab tu diorang pandang? GIRLS! WAKE UP! many girls dressed up to impress boys. Can we change that intention? Can we dreesed up for the sake of our own self? Can we dressed up for our confidence and not for boys? 

Next example, maybe they smiled at you sebab you reminded them of something really funny and embarassing.Tak ke malu kalau kita dah terperasan? And ada pulak, some girls dok sibok cerita cerita to her friends about that guys who smiled at her, padahal kau jadi bahan gelak? TAK KE SADISSSSSS. So please, be mature. They smile, because you're a joke. 

But it's not wrong to smile back, I'm not saying that korang should be snobby or arrogant, bak kata orang bajet cun lah apa lah, you girls can still smile back or even say hi but please.. DON'T SAY THAT HE LIKES YOU. A smile doesnt explains that he likes you. A smile is just a smile. 

Be professional lah. I'm not jealous of someone or anything. It's just that, girls nowadays senang sangat terperasan, and they look. Cheap. And somehow... stupid. Not being rude, but this is the fact. Banyak perempuan yang tak fikir consequences. I felt sorry for them. I really do. 

So for girls out there, be expensive. Don't waste your pride and prettiness for creatures called boys. Eventhough you love them so much, but you're still a human and you have a soul, your own soul. So please, JADI MAHAL SIKIT BOLEH? 

p/s : remember babes, a smile is just a smile :3

Love.

Hi.

Two weeks. It had been two weeks I'm here in PSIS. And I'm happy, truly I am. Allah heard my prayers! I'm healthy, I'm fresh, I'm happy. I'm great! Ahaa. I wish I really wish nothing bad will happen to me here. I wish I'll be okay and will always be happy here.

My english lecturer, invited me to join the English Club and I'm so excited cause I was INVITED WEHH haha. I'm so sorry if I'm a bit over acting with this post, it's just that I'm too happy. Uh uhh it's fasting right now, and this year is the first year I'll be fasting by my own and without my beloved family. 

It's been a few nights where I'd forgotten to 'sahur' but other than that, it had been perfectly fine :) Went to bazaar with friends outside poli by prebet and I really really loving the new experience! Ahaa, I'm loving my life right now and I miss my bestfriends back at home so much! I miss raja, ying, yaya, yap, afifa, akmal and so so many more! ahahaha rindu sangat sangat :') 

p/s : Game over ;D

PSIS

Hola everyone.

I'm here at PSIS. Politeknik Sultan Idris Shah. And I'm at the end of the world. Well, to be precise, it's not that bad over here. For people who always always got drag with the chaos and noisiness of the city, this is the best place to be calm. For your information, PSIS is just beside the beach. And it's beautiful for sure, windy at night, day and even noon. 

For now, I maybe hate this place because I miss my family so much. But somehow deep down inside my heart, I can feel that, one fine day.. I'm going to miss this place. Oh yes I do. The students over here are after all, very friendly. And the lecturers too. And over here, the disciplinary action is super strict. No doubt! 

I don't think that people can't study over here, because this is the best place for a student to focus. No such things as entertainments, shopping malls, or clubs. There's just, trees, perfect oxygen and cows! Countless cows! And their poops, not to forget ahaa. 

I made a lot of new friends, well I guess. I'm not even sure if they really wanted to be friends with me. Obviously, I'm quite a loud person but I'm trying my best to fit in. Alhamdulillah, I managed to have a lot of friends and bestfriends for addition. 

Ops! I think I'm late, better get ready for my class. Taa~ 

p/s : I'm trying my best to fit in, please don't hate me.

ExcitVous

Hola mucacas.

Today, is Friday. And it's 6th of July. That means, tomorrow I'm off to Sabak Bernam and the day after is le registration day. Feelings? ExcitVous. Excited and Nervous. I'm excited cause it's my 3 whole years of living over there, it's my new adventure. And nervous, because obviously, it's something new. Could i fit in? Can they accept me as who I am or can I even accept them as who they are?

I don't actually know what I'm going to face the day after and I don't even have the time to figure it out. I'm too busy saying goodbyes, why? Cause my life over here is kinda suck. Well, newsflash! I lost the man I love over here, I lost my one superbly pretty bestfriend over here and most of all, all of my besties had already left me here. They are all travelling on their own ways, I'm the only one who's stuck here by myself. Suck muchhhhh.

So eventually, everyone's moving on. And me too. And I want to end up great. I don't want to live by my past. I want to live with my future. My bright and shiny future. Pray for me, please. 

Assalamualaikum :3

Talk.

Holaaaa.

Been away for quite long now. Ahhaa how are you guys? I'm fine, totally fine. Counting days before I'll be at Sabak Bernam studying IT. Hopely, doing well over there. For the time being, I'm quite bored staying home doing nothing. Been gaining weight for the past few months. Haiyoyo. 

I'd decided to let go of what that had been done and wht's not mine. So here I am, standing alone without that man whom I loved so much. I'd decided to let go and move on, I guess. Being saying that, for quite some time but not really into doing it physically and mentally, obviously.

I'm afraid it's a bit hard for me to do so, since he was my first and only real love that I'd ever felt. But I know, somehow deep inside, there's that strength that I'd been holding too long and am afraid to waste and use it for something minor like broken-hearted. I mean, there's still something or somewhat that is more hurtful and important than heart-breaking. Am I right? Well, who cares.

But what I care now is, I'm going to start a new life next month. Leaving this dead town and turn over a new leaf, perhaps. But I won't ever forgotten those people who were supportive and was always there for me when I'm in need. I love how my life had been right now but somehow I need something new. Need to explore and leave back the scars. So pray for me.

jealousy

yes, memanglah jealous tu tanda sayang. tapi tak lah sampai cemburu buta? tu bukan sayang namanya tu, tu dah tak percaya pada pasangan masing masing. don't you think so? 


I don't even know what have you been thinking lately, but don't you know that i love you so much and only you? can't you feel anything? didn't i just gave my all to you? why must you doubt me ? why must you think i'm all flirtatious to every guy i know? WHY? don't you know that I treated you like a prince? but all you felt was insincerity? doesn't you know that it hurts the most when you doubted me ? I HATE THAT! why can't you trust me ? Why? you told me a million times that you do trust me but what happens now? you're not. 


and when I kept explaining these to you, you started to become all sweet and seek for forgiveness and we'll be fine but later on it's just the same thing, keep repeating over and over again. and when, i said these thing, you'll end up keeping your thoughts to yourself and i'll feel like dating a robot. FUCK THAT. you'll make me all guilty forever! 


i don't know what to do, i don't know what to explain anymore,cause everything i'll do, is going to get back to me again, just like you. sometimes i felt like breaking up but i know that i love you so much and i wouldn't want to lose you. haaahhh. i don't know what to do. should we break up again?

Mom.

I was home alone, my brother were off to work and my sister were at school. I decided not to go to school because I have to take care of my little sister when she's home. I had finished settling the laundries and done some chores as well. I thought that day was going to be short, but it's obviously a very long morning, I lay on my mother's bed. Thinking deeply about her, oh boy how much I miss her. This really, reminds me of what she always said, when I woke up late every morning. 

She would go to my room, at about two or three times and would call my name frequently without asking me to get up. I know her tricked, when she did that it means that, I'm not suppose to sleep at this period in fact i have study. Well as ussual, I'll never wake up at the first three calls, the fourth time she went into my room, then I'll wake up cause by that time, she'll already got angry. Oh how I miss that moment, mother. 

And when I finally woke up, I would straight away go downstairs and have my brunch, well that's the second part where she scolded me again. For not brushing my teeth or even bath before going downstairs and when I'm on my way up, she would scream and told me to tidy up my bed. Well, I usually will lay on the bed again, and purposely falling to sleep. 

At 11, I'll woke up. And she'd probably making cakes or cookies. Then I'll hit the shower, and took my books. But I obviously only took them without studying. I'll make myself busy with her stuff instead. Like asking her what she's doing, and watch her doing what she's doing and sometimes I helped by making it worse! And she always gets angry but I'll just laugh cause I know she's not that angry actually. 

Then, if I didnt studied for at least 1 hour in the morning, she'll do the dissapointment face and that could make me felt guilty for the whole day. When she did that, I'll quickly went to my books and started reading, while she'd probably went to bath or to fetch my little sister from school. When she's bored, she'll read Quran and probably do some readings. She hates it when she'll go online, cause she can't stop. She said that thing is addictive. Well, it is. 

When it's time for lunch or dinner, she ALWAYS asks me to eat, cause I'm the one who's always felt sick, she just knew it. And I know I'll not eat cause I'm scared of getting fat. Actually, it's not that I'm scared of getting fat instead I just love it when she cared too much for me. That's what it is. Finally, when it's time for bed, she'll always tell me to recite the prayers first then went to bed. And she'll always said goodnight and probably asks me to studied for an hour before bed, I know she loves me. 

I miss my mom so much, she's at Maccah right now. And she'll be coming home at the 26th. I love my mom and she's irreplaceable. People may take their mom for granted right now cause they kept on mumbling and nags about your studies and future, but if you aks me, I would really want my mom to nags about that to me right now, cause when she didnt, I felt like a loner. I love you mama, and I'll be waiting for you to come home. Thank you Allah, for letting live and comes out from my mom :') haha it sounds so wrong.

I LOVE YOU MA ♥

me being selfish?

I'm currently in a bitch mood, so I hope you did not read this. 


What do you mean by I'm being selfish? What do you mean by i'm using harsh words with you? WHO'S THE ONE WHO SAID I'M CRUSHING ON MY OWN BESTFRIEND'S BOYFRIEND? it was you, you were the one who's being mean to me. You're the one who didn't care of my feelings anymore, you didn't even think of what will i feel when you say those things. You cried? And you feel sad? Then what about me? I cried in front of you, after you said those awful things. I explained it all to you already but what you did, was not trusting me. What makes you think that I'm okay with that? 


I'm way tired than you do. You said I'm selfish but all you think about is your feelings, you keep hurting me and when I back myself up, you got angry, you said i can't accept critism bt what about you? did you accept my words? did you even listen to me? 

Just some heartaching

I'd been thinking lately, about good times I had before, it's gone by now....


I cried of almost every night, I kept to myself for too long, I'm afraid of telling people, I'm afraid that I would repeat my mistake. I told my bestfriends before of what I really feel, I thought the quotes in the internet, in books or even by saying that friends understand us more than family does, but mine does not. Does this proves that people lied? I told them about how I felt, I expressed everything to them. Well, at first they were understanding but days by days, mocking were all they did. 


They thought they were just joking, but it's my problem they're talking about, it's my life that they were made a joke off. I don't want to make things big and added more of my problems so I just tag along. What will I do without them? I'm suffocating all by myself..


That is when I had thought of him, my petbrother whom I didnt contact for so long. I was hoping that he could be the one, to comfort me, to give me strength like he always did before, but all I had was ' no replies ' . I burst into tears thinking of my heart aching all by myself. Nobody is with me...


Before, I always shared everything with my big sis, but now she's too far away, and even if I wanted to make a phone call and tell her everything, she'll be too busy telling me about her problems instead. I don't want to burden her with my problems more. So I kept quiet, again keep it to myself. I'm aching hours by hours but nobody knows..


Boyfriend? Should I tell him of my problems, his problems is more than everything to compared of! I wouldn't want to burden him more. Not now not ever. Imma just keep it to myself, and when the time comes, I'll just cry. I'll cry and cry and cry till my eyes ache, and I'll cry more till my whole body are aching, and that's the point where I'll stop. Cause I have to wait for the next moment to cry again..


I don't look happy anymore. My smiles were all not fake, honestly. It's just that, it's not in a good quality anymore. I lost my happiness in a blink of an eye. People may think, I should tell to God, to Allah. But I'm too embarassed. I'm too embarassed of myself to even seek for his blessing, I'm His servant that doesnt have the right to have his blessing because I didnt obey his orders. I'm too shy to even ask something from him. I shouldn't be asking or telling him anything! Cause I'm the most despicable servant of His. I'm sorry Allah,I'm not even eligible to receive the forgiveness from you. Cause I'm filthy..


To here, I told everything, of what I really feel. Mam is going to Maccah in 14 days, I'll lost my strength by then, I'll even lost my low quality smile by then, I'll lost my happiness by then. I hope I'll be strong, I hope everyone will be here for me. But for me now, hope is just a word. A word that I shouldn't hope to say at the first place..


I lost it in a blink of an eye....

Trust

well, trust is kinda like THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN A RELATIONSHIP.

Obviously, but gaining some trust is something, remaining that trust is another thing.

I'm not really a bitch who does not trust her boyfriend, who asks him where he is every single minute, asks him what is he doing at every text message, needed details about his schedule every night before bed. I'm just simple. I didn't ask things. I just trust, but breaking my trust, well you don't want that. That's the last thing you want cause when I stopped, i won't be asking you those questions above. IN FACT, I don't even care, I won't ask, I won't answer instead, I won't even care if you even wanted to tell me. 

well, that's me.

chow ♥

TEHEE ♥

haishhhh sukanya sukanya HAHA ♥

NHH ♥

assalamuaikum,

ingat tak bila aku cakap dulu, dalam persahabatan, satu hari nanti, one of a friend mesti akan menyampah with another, kau tak terima ayat aku tu. kau cakap, kau tak menyampah dengan aku pun. and i said, one day you will. and that day had come. 

selama kita kawan, aku dah cuba sedaya upaya to make you feel comfortable with me, i tried everything, i guess it's just not enough. i know you will hate me, i know you will leave me, i just can't accept the fact that it happens so soon. I love having fun with you, i love to be friends with you, but you didn't. thank you for your sweet memories, thank you for your friendship, i'll cherish it :) i'll remember it, just one thing i want you to know. i'm always here if you need me. I'm sorry, kawan. I really am. for dissapointing you.

-tasha hasnan

Nak :-(

Assalamualaikum :)

Heyhoo, SAYA NAK JERSEY HITAM KUNING! nak sangat sangat :-(

hmmmmm....

ps : tau tak lapar tuh apa? sabar tasha, setengah jam lagi berbuka. ni lah padahnya lambat ganti puasa heee

Uncle Mizan ♥

HAPPY 1 MONTH ANNIVERSARY

hamizan shakri (:

♥ ♥ ♥

Heyy :)


well, I don't always update my blog nowadays, ahha malas kot :) hihi, but whatever it is, i have to inform you guys that I lost something! I'm so tired of getting it back cause that person who took it won't give it back! haihhh tak tau nak buat apa doeeee, you guys boleh tolong tak? tolong cakap dekat orang yang amek tuh, yang i suruh dia simpan barang i tu elok elok, sebab dia fragile gila ! susah sangat nak jaga, and freakingly hard to get tau? And it's actually my heart ♥ ahha ;D well, it's stolen by my love (; hohoo


benci lah bila dah in love, macam ni lah jadinya. HAHA sibuk fikir pasal dia je, every hour of every minute, every minute of every second, every second of every milisecond KAYKAY cukup dah hahahaha. 

Well, practically I'm taken by this monster ♥

Hamizan Shakri ♥

-tasha hasnan :)